Middle Person

I've always felt like a middle person. Not the favorite person but not the most hated person. Not the most passionate person but not a numb person either. My whole life, I've felt in some way, not right. Like I didn't belong in the place I was. Like I didn't belong in my circle of family or friends. I was never outgoing enough for my brother, never smart enough for my dad, never fun enough for my friends. I've always lived as if I was just floating through life, like an constant out of body experience. I never feel anything to closely. Don't feel the depression, don't feel the anxiety, don't feel anything to closely to heart. I'm always feeling so lost wihtout actually feeling lost.